Sunday, July 30, 2006

Status quo

It's funny how I feel when we're together. It's always bitter, never sweet, yet so memorable. I guess charm matures like wine - It just gets more mellow as the clock ticks and time goes by.

I'll probably never make the first move, or any at all to begin with. Perhaps because we know each other too well, to the point that all negative externalities just seem to overwhelm the better side of you. And thinking about all those negativity does make me very skeptical. Considering all the areas we don't click just turn the tables around for those aspects that work out. Being the safe player I am, I'm reluctant to risk a healthy friendship we share now. And I'd gladly indulge in short flings if need to, just so as I can bury my need for passion, for someone to love. Perhaps.

I really have no idea what I feel, and I don't wanna spend all my energies just so that I can come to a conclusion. Perhaps I'm afraid to come to terms with myself, but as it is, things remain, and I'm happy the way they are.

And I suddenly felt like listening to Bryan Adam's Everything I do I do it for you.
How uncanny. How un-ivanly sappy can things get haha.

posted@11:13 PM

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